Thursday, November 26, 2009
Saturday, August 1, 2009
I know you see all of this
I'm sorry you have to see all of this from up there. I often wonder if you can only watch helplessly or if you have some pull up there. The other night when Kris said, "your mom is gone, who are you going to turn to now?" in that very mean tone, I knew you were right there beside me...not gone as he said.
There are a few things I'd like to ask you. I wish so often that you were here. I know what you would say, you said it to me before you died "don't make the same mistakes I did". Well, I'm not but in the process, the pain is overwhelming. I see now why you never left dad. You often told me that your family wouldn't support your decision to divorce dad and I now see how vital it is to have that support. Oddly enough, the one person that has been supportive is Patsy! She said the kindest words the other day and it really made a big difference to just have someone hug you and support you.
Well, you should see Serena these days! She starts middle school in a week. I couldn't be happier for how she is growing up. She's beautiful both inside and out. Jack is going into first grade and is about to be a green belt! You should see him kick with such intensity. William is a little devil! He is so sweet and cute right as he is getting into trouble. It makes it hard to punish him! The boys and I were at the cemetery today feeding those ducks and geese. It was like a stampede! Those geese are fighters. We went through all of the old bread pretty fast. William was running around, running from the geese but they just kept chasing him!
I'm not on here as much as I'd like. But we still talk. I miss you so much, Mom.
There are a few things I'd like to ask you. I wish so often that you were here. I know what you would say, you said it to me before you died "don't make the same mistakes I did". Well, I'm not but in the process, the pain is overwhelming. I see now why you never left dad. You often told me that your family wouldn't support your decision to divorce dad and I now see how vital it is to have that support. Oddly enough, the one person that has been supportive is Patsy! She said the kindest words the other day and it really made a big difference to just have someone hug you and support you.
Well, you should see Serena these days! She starts middle school in a week. I couldn't be happier for how she is growing up. She's beautiful both inside and out. Jack is going into first grade and is about to be a green belt! You should see him kick with such intensity. William is a little devil! He is so sweet and cute right as he is getting into trouble. It makes it hard to punish him! The boys and I were at the cemetery today feeding those ducks and geese. It was like a stampede! Those geese are fighters. We went through all of the old bread pretty fast. William was running around, running from the geese but they just kept chasing him!
I'm not on here as much as I'd like. But we still talk. I miss you so much, Mom.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
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Saturday, February 28, 2009
Hi Mom, As time marches on and helps to heal my heart there comes to mind things I wish I had said or done differently...
I had told you one last time how much I loved you and how much you mean to me.
I was not such a rebellious teenager.
I had more deep converstions with you.
I had been awake when you passed.
I had visited you more often.
I wish you would have had a happier life without the pain and struggles you endured.
I had told you one last time how much I loved you and how much you mean to me.
I was not such a rebellious teenager.
I had more deep converstions with you.
I had been awake when you passed.
I had visited you more often.
I wish you would have had a happier life without the pain and struggles you endured.
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