I have been wondering why, besides the fact that you are not here anymore, that the days since you passed seem so tough and so hard.

I have not been able to put my finger on what this feeling is, until today, and I think I have it figured out....

Just you being here softened my life, smoothed the rough edges, gave peace to my mind -- sounds crazy weird, I know.

Day after day passes with no relief.

It is tough here without you.

I miss you and your way of smoothing out the edges.