Feelings

Hey Mom,

I am sure you already know this, but I am struggling with the fact that you are gone. It was easy the first few days but now I guess it is setting in that you actually died.

Just the other day I was thinking that I really needed to call you because the past few times I called I only spoke with Dad.. silly me. The array of difficult emotions I have are almost overwhelming, especially when I am idle, so I try to stay as busy as possible, work helps, but at night it is really, really difficult.

I thought it would not be so difficult since I prepared myself for this inevitable time to come but now that it happened I can not believe that you are actually gone. I, as Anna, keep seeing you in the hospital over and over again ...*sigh*.... that was extremely tough. When I see you in the hospital, I immediately try to usher in a different memory of when you were alive, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.

One of the most difficult things was seeing the kids. Dad is doing as best he can, but in time I think he will be ok and so will Anna and I.

I bet you are so relieved to be done with earth and your earthly body, it must be indescribable the joy and peace you have now... that makes me very, very happy.... but still, I will forever miss you!!

I love you,
Laura

PS. "This ain't getting it done" is going on your grave marker ;)

PSS. Thank you Anna for creating this.